( 5-25-2010) Hi Grandpa..I have cried for you more than a few times. I miss you so much. Has it really been 3 years since you left?! I think about you a lot but lately it's been even more..I wish you were still here. My kids would have loved you I know Damon did with the short amount of time he knew you. I have 2 year old daughter now too. Her name is Lillian & she is a firecracker! You would adore her Mike & I are married now too! Going on 2 years (7 years total) You would be glad to know that he loves me & treats me like a queen Thanksgiving & Christmas isn't the same without you either..everyone pretty much keeps to themselves. I miss the big family get-togethers! But I think that I'm supposed to write a memory here..so here it goes:  When I was little you had all us kids convinced that you had a button in yur nose!! You would "open" the garage door by pushing your nose. Little did we know..you had the actual clicker behind your back! HaHa That's something I will never forget & will share with my own kids. The other memory I have to share is: When I was about 5, during one of our family get-togethers Mick was chasing me through your house..we ran into the kitchen from the breeze way & I dove under the table & onto Beagles paw. He bit me on the face! But you were sitting right there at the table & it was to you that I went for. You picked me up & put me on your lap. I still remember feeling safe in your arms...you made it all better. I miss you so much. Everytime I see a John Deere something or other I always think of you on one of your John Deere toys

HAPPY FALL DAD

LOVE, SUSIE

2009

Remembering you today and always Dad

MERRY CHRISTMAS

     HAPPY FATHERS DAY!

                                                                          

THE POEM........... WHEN TOMARROW STARTS WITHOUT ME When tomarrow starts without me, and i'm not there to see; If the sun should rise and find your eyes, all filled with tears for me; I wish so much you wouldn't cry, the way you did on that day, while thinking of the many things we didn't get to say. ________________________- I know how much you Loved me As much as I Loved you, And each time that you think of me, I know you miss me too; But when tomarrow starts without me, please try to understand' that an angle came and called my name' and took me by the hand, She said my place was ready in heaven far above, And that I'd have to leave behind All those I dearly Love. ________________ But as I turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye, For all my Life , I'd always thought, I didn't want to die. I had so much to live for, So much yet to do, It seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you. I thought of all the yesterdays, The good ones and the bad, I thought of all the love we shared, and all the fun we had. _____________ If I could relive yesterday, just even for a while, I'd say good bye and I would kiss you, and maybe see you smile. But then I fully realized, that this could never be, for emptiness and memories would take the place of me. _________________ When I thought of worldly things, I might miss come tomarrow, I thought of you, and when I did, My heart was filled with sarrow. But when I walked through heavens gates, I felt so much at home. When God looked and smiled at me from his great golden throne, he said this is eternity and all I've promised you. ____________________ Today for you life has past, but here it starts a new, I promise no tomarrow, but today will always last. And since each day's the same, there's no longing for the past. __________________________ But you have been so faithful, so trusting and so true, though there were times you did some things you knew you shouldn't do. But you have been forgiven and now atlast your free. So won't you take my hand and share my life with me? ______________________________ So when tomarrow starts without me, Don't think we are far apart, For everytime you think of me, I'm right there in your HEART. I know it's a long one! Here's another,from the kids. TO THOSE WHO GRIEVE FOR ME Still you are weeping. Dry your tears, Grieve not for me for I am near. Go not to that earthly mound I lie not there beneath the ground, I am near you everyday. I see your pleasures, joys, and fears still to my heart you are dear I am with you ever near to see you weep saddens me To see your joy gladdens me So, hinder not my happy way we will meet another day.

Hey Dad, It's me again. I was sitting here today and I was thinking of Mother's Day which is right around the corner. Anyway My point, the first thought that came to mind was YOU. Because I was remembering when Brandon was born. I called you in the middle of the night and you came right away. You were extremely quiet, as a matter of fact you did not say a word. I remember wondering if it was because you were still half asleep. But it wasn't, It was because you were playing Mr. cool. Yes Mr. Cool whom was actually so nervous he couldn't speak...lol. I remember you driving me to the hospital, it was snowing and you never went a speck over the speed limit! Of all times to pick not to speed you just had to pick this one. I swear I thought Brandon would be born in the truck. I remember screaming, DAAD hurry up it's coming!!! You just moved along ever soooooo calmmmm. We finally made it to the hospital and you calmly walked over to my side of the truck and of course I was being loud and already trying to jump out of the truck. And you quietly helped me walk into the ER and Dr. McIntyer was standing there waiting for us. Well at this point I am really in pain and making alot of noise, thinking it's ok now the doc is here, But no one said a word to me, nothing. No questions or concerns, no nothing. It was a long elevator ride upstairs while I sat in a wheel chair listening to you and the Doc. pleasantly and ever so calmly chatting away as if I weren't even there.......even when I yelled at the two of you I got no response yous just kept on chatting away about who knows what. Then finally I get into a room, in a bed And the best part was you stayed  not making one little sound, your expession was calm as you sat right there. And then I remember I cursed really loud in the middle of things and I looked over at you, remembering you were there and I yelled out to you that I was sorry for the bad word and you just giggled at me and said, Oh don't worry about me it's ok. Finally Brandon was born and after a few moments or so you came and kissed me, told me you loved me and that I did good and you said if I didn't need anything else you were going home so you could go to bed cause you were tierd. And off you went.  Having a child is the most precious experience of a womans life, and that day it was, but for me looking back and thinking about it and remembering it, having you there with me was just as precious. Every detail of that morning makes me smile. It must have been so nerve racking for you. And remembering how calm you kept yourself sometimes just makes me laugh, Because I know you were anything but calm on the inside. But now I realize where I get that calmness from. You. Anyway, that is what makes my mother's day special, I just wish I could have told you so. I Love You Dad.  So those are one of my memories I wanted to share.

Hi Dad. I know you can't read any of what I may type here on this silly page, but somehow, sometimes it can make us all feel alittle better to just get it out. I guess it's just a place to come and imagine you here or something like that. I miss so much. Some days it hurts so bad I feel like I can't breath and others it's ok. I feel stronger than ever. I guess I can say that most days are feeling pretty stronge but it's those few inbetweeners that are a killer. It's quiet at your place these days. There is a sort of peacefull calm about it. I can't explain it. It has always been pretty peacefull there but now it's somewhat overwhelming in a sence. I was there today and I thought alot about you, I kept waiting for you to pop out from somewhere and tell me to open a window or take a break, or something like I know you would. So I just did. So I guess that's it for today, kids are a callin! I love you Dad.    

My Partner in Life

We are two loving friends and two friendly lovers making our way along this pathway called life---arm in arm when one of us needs steadying and hand in hand when it's just nice to know the other is there.

When we are together, life is exactly as we want it to be---warm, safe, satisfying, and passionate.  And when we are apart, we carry one another in our hearts.

Our lives are not extraordinary, but our love is because we complete one another.  You will always be in my thoughts, and in my heart. You will always be my partner.  Love, 'Hon'

                     HE ONLY TAKES THE BEST

God saw that he was getting tired

And a cre there was not to be.

So God put his arms around him,

And softly whispered,"come with me."

With tear filled eyes we watched him,

Suffer and fade away.

Although we loved him deeply,

We knew he could not stay.

A golden heart stopped beating,

Hardworking hands were put to rest.

God broke our hearts to prove to us,

He only takes the best.

God took the strength of a mountain,
The majesty of a tree,
The warmth of a summer sun,
The calm of a quiet sea,

The generous soul of nature,
The comforting arm of night,
The wisdom of the ages,
The power of the eagle's flight,

The joy of a morning in spring,
The faith of a mustard seed,
The patience of eternity,
The depth of a family need,

Then God combined these qualities,
When there was nothing more to add,
He knew His masterpiece was complete,
And so, He called it ... Dad

DAD

 

EVERYTIME I SEE THE SUNRISE--I WILL SEE YOUR FACE...

AND HOPE THAT YOU WILL ALWAYS KNOW THAT IN MY HEART YOU HAVE A PLACE.

 

EVERYTIME I SEE THE SUNRISE--I WILL HEAR YOU SPEAK MY NAME...

AND I KNOW MY LIFE WITH-OUT YOU WILL NEVER BE THE SAME.

 

EVERYTIME I SEE THE SUNRISE--I'LL FEEL YOU IN MY HEART...

AND HOPE THAT YOU WILL ALWAYS KNOW THAT WE WILL NEVER PART.

 

EVERYTIME I SEE THE SUNRISE-- I'LL SMILE AT THE THOUGHT... FOR ALL THE HAPPINESS

TO EVERYONE YOUV'E BROUGHT.

 

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU

I'M SO PROUD TO BE YOUR DAUGHTER

LOVE SUSIE

Dorleen